This week is all about challenges, and at the speed with which I have been churning out posts about my challenges each day, I have come to a point of self realisation - My life has really been challenging!!!
This challenge that I am going to talk about today, is something which almost choked me to death! The challenge of being silent!
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I can talk...like really talk... for hours, for days and I am never short of topics. I can talk on anything and everything. My speciality is that I don't need a forum to talk, I can just start anywhere, in the grocery store, at the station, from inside the bathroom like literally anywhere. Mom often said that when the clock struck 4 in the evening her heart would start racing, at the thought that I was going to reach home in another 10 minutes and her ears would now in every sense start bleeding.
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So this one day, as usual on returning from school I started my blah blah blahing, "Mom you know........" and the next moment I know my mom has lost it completely. She just flared at me and in her highest pitch possible said, "NO PINKY I DON'T KNOW & I DON'T WANT TO KNOW!!" saying this she pulled me by my arm, and I dropped my bottle of water in the process. She dragged me to the dining chair and very sternly and firmly looked at me and said, "Sit here. Do not move or I will tie you down. Shut your mouth and don't utter a word." waving her finger at me very fiercely she repeated, "Not a SINGLE world till I ask you to. Do you understand?". I looked at her like a scared sparrow with my big eyes all in tears and nodded my head like a cow, in affirmative (oh the perils of being a teenager)
She then put her hands on her hips and breathed slowly and seemed to calm down. She looked at me and said, "Now I will talk, you will only listen, don't say anything ok" I nodded again (how on earth do cows do this? seriously!!) She continued, "Breathe slowly now. Hear yourself breathe, hear your mind, your own thoughts" (yes I have to confess she sounded like Baba Ramdev) "See how you feel...when you say nothing at all... don't talk... see how quiet you feel... when you say nothing at all" saying this she sank into the sofa and closed her eyes and in a slow voice said, "Oh how good I feel when you say nothing at all hmmmmmmmmm"
This whole exercise must have taken about 5 minutes, and my dad my saviour of that moment entered the house. As soon as I saw him the flood gates of my eyes opened, but I made sure not a sound came from my mouth. Dad hurriedly came to me and looked at mom and asked, "what the hell is this? why is she crying?" Mom in a more demanding voice told dad about her torture, it took about another 2 minutes for her to narrate. Dad was really annoyed, looked at me and said, "open you mouth..now".
OMG!! I have no words to say how I felt, but I will try my best. The minute I got permission I started wailing as loudly as possible. Mom and Dad thought it was because of the punishment, but actually I was screaming with happiness and the tears that came out were tears of joy!! I was finally hearing my own voice after a whole 7 minutes and it was music to my ears. In that 7 minutes I felt like something inside me was going to explode, my face had become red, as though if the words did not come out of my mouth I would burst and be shattered all over the house!!! Yes that is how you feel when you say nothing at all!!
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I compensated those 7 minutes of loss by completely yapping for about another 4 hrs non-stop and as a punishment dad was the audience :D :D
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